It's the first door to the leftSo once upon a time in the school library today, the librarian kept misgendering me after seeing my library records (they're separate form the main school records and for some reason my biological name and gender marker aren't changed in the library's system). Even after I'd corrected her, she kept at it and completely shouldered the fact that she was using wrong pronouns and pretty much harassing me; that of course really pissed me off and I ended up telling her,"You should really get that speech impediment looked at, I know a great doctor in room go fuck yourself" I probably took it a bit far with that comment but seriously? What's wrong with people, that makes them think that they have the right to tell you what you identify as?
Which Bathroom?I am not a boy, not a girlskinny pants with no bumphips hidden by long shirtsyet I tape my chest everydayso I can look like methese eyes look past shapesseeing souls and inner thoughtshearing those judgements who can't stand to stay in somebodies head'Are you a boy or a girl?'Can't i just be a person?walking and talking just like youmoving to the beat of time The thumping in my chest ba-bump ba-bump ba-bumpsinging of a free landfree to express how I wantas a person who likes peoplewithout:a)Femaleb)Malebecause I amc)Bothd)Neitherdepending on the time of daybut that cannot beits just not normalmuch too queer for peopleout of the ordinarysince I don't fit in your box Don't you dare try to make me fit because I am a personjust like you and themso next time you ask'chico o chica?'remember that it doesn't mattterand
HEHEHE LOK AT THE COLUDSGUYS ITS MADI HAHAHAHAHA LOOKS AT THAT CUTE LITTLE SUNSHINE AND STS OH GOD I THOGUHT I SAW KYEL AND I THINK GGES HES GONNA KILL ME WHEN HES SEES IM WRITING THISI SEE ABELS ASS IT IS THE LIGHTIM STARING INTO THE LIGHT SO KYLE MUST BE KILLING ME RIGHT NOWWITH HIS MINDOH WAIT NEVERMINDIM STILL ALIVEKYLE DO YOU EVEN LIFTDO YOU EVEN SEE MEHAHAHA WAT R U GONNA DOIT SOUNDED LIKE THIS SONG SAID I CAN SEE YOUR ASSIM COMPLICATED SO IM CALLING YOUR ASS??THESE ARE SOME DEEP LYRICSHELLO YES THS IS ASSIM SORRY SIR WE CANT BE TOGETHER BECAUSE I AM ONLY AN ASSIM OGING TO WRITE AN EROTIC FANFICTIONthe ass slowly galloped to the bed where the man was singing and he keaned in real close and gently stroked the cheek of the ass and was lke"i want you so bad" but the ass was ike..."we cannot sex, i am pregnant with kyle's babies" so then the man wept and kyle punched him in the noggin.THE END
Anything.We waited in silence,For a sound.Something..Anything really.But nothing ever happened,And no one ever came.We waited for him.But he never came.A long plane ride in bitter silence,Left alone with a crushing reality.He was never coming home.And we realize that no amount of wishin will bring him back to us.But still we wait.Wondering.Wondering if he watches us or turns away in shame?Wondering if he's proud of who we became?Wondering if he will visit our dreams anymore?We wonder..And we wait in silence.For a sound.Something..Anything.
The Return of the KeithGuess who's back??Next week I'm going to be doing another episode of 'Keith How Do.'If you have any 'how dos' that you wanna see in the video then make sure you email your requests to:firstname.lastname@example.orgI look forward to your mental mail! 8D
That moment....That momentYou forgetAbout the thingYou have forgottenThat momentYou cryAbout the tearsThat you already shedThat momentYou are hurtBy the woundThat you inflictedThat momentYou give up everythingWhile in factYou have nothing left
My Deviantart StoryI'll join in on the fun and follow the many before me Happy birthday DA, thank you for existing! Not much of a present, but here's my 'story'!March 10 2013, I was having a 'sleepover' with a friend, MinsaChan to be exact. We had a meeting with a group of friends in Zwolle and afterwards she came with me, too my home 'up north'. She is an amazing artist herself, and a sweet girl, a good person and she had read some of my poetry. She said to me, 'I think this is something for you!', she showed me the site and I got enthusiastic, I wanted to join. She helped me create an account and I was sweet with it for the rest of the evening The same day/eve, I uploaded the first poems: I'm still quite proud of these, I remember hoping they would be "good enough". Never got much feedback on em though, for I was new 2 respondents on the second one though, 2 people I have absolutely fallen in love with, storystosee and @MagicalJ
I Hate ListI hate everything and everyone.I hate ant-emos.I hate the people who think color means something.I hate high classy people. I hate haters.I hate people, people hate me.I hate myself.I hate this fate that cannot walk away from.I hate this hell that I create and can't escape from.I hate my fears.I hate that I will hurt the one I care about and I can't stop it from happening.I hate the truth but I can't forget it.I hate the things I do.I hate my family.I hate the world. I want to light it on fire a watch it burn.I hate that I am a demon.I hate this rage inside of mine.I hate this suffering that we go through.I hate the pain I cause myself because of her.I hate that I can't go back in time a fix all the mistakes I made.I hate my family.I hate orange, anything orange.I hate the sun it always blind me.I hate everything and everyone.I like maybe love her.
Random Russian LessonA lot of people are asking me about a lot of the words I use to describe family. (because I don't like the English terms)So I shall now give you a mini lesson on family members in Russian.Mother = MahtAht Yets = FatherSyn = SonDohch = DaughterBrat = BrotherSestra = SisterReebyonuk = ChildBabushka =GrandmotherDyedushka= GrandfatherDyadya = UncleTyotya -= AuntKuzyen (or) Kuzina = Male cousin or female cousinSyemya = FamilyYOU ARE WELCOME. Now stop being confused.
Never good enoughIt's all wrongNo matter what they sayThey've all been lyingDon't tell me it'll be okayWe all hurtWe all dieEvery relationshipJust ends in a goodbyeI'm done with this shitThere's no pride in this gameI don't care what you think anymoreBecause it's always on me to blame
//flips logic out windowman I used to really like the trans-community on deviantart (or even just the community itself or even just any supportive community) until I witnessed the amount of judgement and belittling inflicted within it. Like people criticizing other people because they're "pretending", "too girly/manly", or even trying to tell them that it's a phase. FOR FUCKS SAKE, HOW CAN YOU GO AROUND TELLING PEOPLE TO NOT DO THAT TO YOU IF YOU DO IT TO PEOPLE IN THE SAME SITUATION AS YOU? LIKE SERIOUSLY THIS IS GIVING ME LIKE A HEADACHE BECAUSE OF THE LACK OF LOGIC GOING ON HERE. Like seriously there's been over ten messages from ten different people in my ask box this weekend from people who have told me pretty much that their trans friend things that they're copying them for also coming out, that they're too girly to be a boy, and a few others which I answered privately due to requests.And that is really NOT okay, I'm not even officially
Unfortunate NewsBlake Cognata, who was diagnosed with Ewings Sarcoma, a rare cancer that attacks the bones, passed away Saturday morning... and just days before his 18th birthday, which is on Monday, January 14th.I really.... I just don't know what else to say. It has upset me to no end but really made me see life in a totally different way. He's motivated me to smile through the good and the bad, no matter how crummy life gets. He was so strong.All of our town had a candles memorial for him last night on the hill of where our school is. It's an amazing sight to see.It's crazy how much our community was effected by the tragedy. I barely knew this kid and he's changed my life in a matter of a few days.But I'm proud of Blake.And he's cancer free now. I keep Blake's family and friends in my heart and thoughts!
Fursona CONTEST - Win 1000 POINTSOkay well, I've decided to hold a contest since I have some supporters. I never really hold contests so you'll have to bear with me for a moment... 8'IALRIGHT: Well, I've liked my fursona Celine for a while now. She's been awesome and though she's changed I feel like I'll still keep her. However, I feel like I could find something that's a bit more ... 'me'. I really don't know what I mean by that, cuz Celi is pretty much as me as I think III can do specifically... But maybe I can get some awesome ideas from you guys. <3The deadline is April 6th.Things I'll be Lookin' Fer:Species-wise: Dogs? Any sort of dog or canine in general... Mutts are acceptable, but I do love knowing the breeds, so if you could have an idea on a specific mixed breed, that'd be awesome. <3 I might also accept feline designs, but I don't draw cats as much...Design-wise: Something natural, maybe with a splash of bright color. You can do anything as long as it looks good, inclu
BIRTHDAY WISHESOH MY GOSH, THANK YOU ALL! I'm so sorry for the lame blanket-thanks, but last time I tried to respond to EVERY birthday comment I received, DA temporarily suspended my account because I was making too many comments in a short period of time and they thought I was a spambot or something? I consider it a personal achievement but I probably shouldn't attempt it again, so please accept my humble overarching gesture of gratitude! Ah, but wow, thank you all so much, from the bottom of my heart. It's really amazing that each of you would wish birthday greetings to someone like me who is essentially a weirdo on the internet and I truly am touched by your kindness and generosity. Thank you very much, everyone, you really make today special for me. ALSO-- if you made an awesome drawing, please feel free to note me a link so it doesn't get lost in the comments-- I will try my best to keep tabs on the links but I might miss a few!THANK YOU AGAIN!STARFIGHTERCOMIC.COM
Humans..This journal will be deleted eventually- I have no real purpose for it.Humans....Are weird.Strange,And odd.Immature,Yet interesting.Their emotions are interesting to witness.I'm amazed by the way humans lash out at one another.How they can be such gentle creatures, then the next minute, blood thirsty beasts.I'm attracted to them.Like a scientist to lab rats.I like to watch.Humans can make strong relationships over time,Romance.But none of them are forgiving or understanding enough,Drama.To work hard and push through together,Action.While those relationships they made turn into a war over night.Mystery.To me this is nothing but a Comedy.Humans can act like such children, even if they are old.Everyone is always right.Yet everyone is always wrong?I truely do believe that humans are strange beings, and I'll never fully understand why they do the things they do.Does anyone else think the way I do?:I